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The Discovery Journey of K: Episode 4 – Intuition Killers

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“Why am I often still deaf to the voice of intuition and guidance?” K asked herself one quiet Saturday morning. She had been on her journey for awhile now and had made a few important discoveries. She felt she was progressing and was getting a much better sense of herself and her strengths. It was a joy to find pathways into her creative zone. Still, K seemed to have setbacks she did not understand. They were days when everything seemed to go haywire and out of control. These were followed by days of confusion and sadness. She began to recognize that there were times when she felt specially enhanced states of well being, peace and creativity and yet she was not able to sustain these experiences as a permanent feature or even create them at will. These moments of greater awareness and serenity came and went and were not completely in her control. She felt she was being pulled in opposite directions. Part of her wanted to retreat away from people to relax, read, meditate and make her journal entries. But another more gregarious side of her loved to be out there with people socially and even at work, where she could excel through her creative and artistic talents and contributions.

Thinking these thoughts, K wrote: “I have to allow these two parts of me to live happily together in the same zip code, in the same home inside me. They are both a part of who I am. I have to nourish both. If I nourish only one part the other side gets grumpy and upset. The art of living is to know when to attend to the one and when to be with the other. Understanding this and practicing listening to guidance and intuition will help me.” K stopped and thought for a moment. She loved to create lists and frameworks so she began to list the intuition killers, things she recognized as distancing her from being able to listen in to guidance. K wrote –

“Intuition killers:

  1. Getting too over crowded
  2. Needing to please
  3. Inferiority reflex
  4. Obsessive perfectionism
  5. Low self-esteem
  6. Guilt and shame
  7. Addictive behaviors
  8. Bitterness and resentment
  9. Being rushed
  10. Group pressure”

“When I am distant from myself, I can’t hear the voice of my intuition. My intuition is quick but it cannot find me in these circumstances because there is no one home. Let me begin the practice of being present, living here and now, in the moment and in guidance.”

© Aviv Shahar

The Discovery Journey Of K: Episode 3 – The Relationship Dilemma

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The following morning K wrote in her journal: “I find myself listening more and more to my intuition, and when I act on this inner guidance it brings me great strength and energy that was not accessible before. I am beginning to recognize what strengthens me and what makes me weak, what energizes me and what makes me feel tired. I also see that this cause my balances to shift and I feel different attractions and repulsions. People that I never knew all of a sudden are friendly and open to me and some of my friends are drifting away.”

“I love following my intuition but I am now faced with new dilemmas and decisions that are not popular and I am a little unsure. Habits and relationships have their nourishing power but can also create a certain heaviness or weight. D and I have been loyal friends for each other for many years but I see that I am now moving on to places she can’t or won’t go. Still, I know that I must continue, that there is more for me to do and be, even if it means giving up the known and the friendly. Don’t these two always seem to come together – in every move forward there’s a giving up of the current foothold, like stepping on a row of stones across a river – there is one moment where you are no longer on the first stone but not yet safe on the new next stone. It is natural that I feel uncertain.”

K continued to write: “What I know for sure is that I want to evolve and grow but I do not want to hurt people. As I grow in my awareness I begin to see things I did not see before and these insights cause changes in me. My female friends and male friends react differently. Changes I make seem to scare D who is getting upset with me because there are things I no longer want to speak about and do even though they are things we shared in the past. I am sensitive to her struggle but I am also sensitive to the needs of my growth. I have to keep my mind clear and focused so I can be present in what I do. I cannot continue to carry around ‘old luggage’ I used to carry in my mind. In D’s eyes I am no longer the person I used to be which for her turns up as a loss. She is grieving the friendship we used to have. I am grieving it too but I understand that my grief is part of the pain of growth. Even though I have compassion for D, I realize that I cannot take on her struggle as my own. True friendship is not in confirming each other’s weakness and resisting change.”

K paused to reflect on what she just wrote. She felt good journaling these thoughts. “I pray for her strength and hold the best that I know about her in my mind as I seek to make my own higher choices. The new voice in me tells me I am not to feel guilty for my desire to grow. I try to explain what is happening to D. She feels alienated not because of me or a lessening of my affection for her, but because of where she is in her own growth. She sees my growth as a betrayal. But it is not. My growth is about the joy I begin to discover daily and the precious meaning I continue to find. This joy is found in the courage to follow my intuition and see what becomes more important every day. I hope to be strong enough and forgiving for myself and for D.”

© Aviv Shahar

The Discovery Journey of K: Episode 2 – Change

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It was still dark, an hour before sunrise when K got up to do her morning journaling and reflection. She liked to go out into her garden at that time of day as it gave her a sense of peace and she could quietly listen to the sounds of the morning. Over the last few weeks, she was starting to discover clues or hints about what each day might be like before it unfolded and she was becoming better at aligning and preparing herself for the tasks ahead of her. This morning she noticed that the color of a few leaves on the large tree in her garden was changing. She wrote in her journal. “Color is the herald of change.” A breeze of cooler air came through as she wrote these words and she added: “Change brings many changes.” She thought about what she was finding. Change was not a single event. When one thing changes, it changes everything else connected to it; therefore, when one thing changes everything changes. K recognized this as a principle of how things work in every field. It was true in health, in interpersonal matters, in her garden, in the weather system and the climate, and in the stock markets and technology and in everything else: “When one thing changes everything changes. This makes change a constant.”

© Aviv Shahar

The Discovery Journey of K – Episode One: The Four Questions

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K and D had been friends for a number of years. Their friendship had grown from their shared experiences. They tended to see the world from a similar viewpoint. At some point K decided to focus on her personal growth. She became involved in a development journey and began to practice introspection in order to deepen her self-awareness and self-knowledge. K discovered that standards, namely what she allows and doesn’t allow into her life, determine her well being and she began to find out that adhering to these standards had a dramatic influence on her productivity and creative capacity. K realized that there were four categories of standards she needed to focus on:

  1. What comes into her mouth – what does she eat and drink?
  2. What comes out of her mouth – what does she say and speak about?
  3. Where does she spend her time and specifically who does she spend time with?
  4. What thoughts does she empower and take into action?

K decided to keep a daily journal and monitor these four categories with a specific mindset. She examined these categories with a single focus: What energizes me and makes me strong and bright? What tires me and makes me feel weak and dim?

She kept her little journal and reflected on these four: What am I eating? What am I saying? Who am I with? What thoughts do I empower and take into action? She studiously noted her comments in these columns: I get energized-bright-strong / I get tired-dim-weak. Patterns and new self-insights began to emerge.

K discovered that her body and mind have an innate wisdom and intuition; that this intuitive part of her is quick to know what is good for her and is very accurate. K said to herself: “I want to tune my awareness into my natural intuition so I’ve got to start paying attention when it communicates information and I need to learn to trust it.” Her development coach said: “If you don’t listen to your intuition it will stop delivering messages. When you listen to your intuition and act on it, your intuition will bring you increasing amounts of information. As you learn to trust it, it will trust that you do not dismiss its input. Your intuition will strengthen and you will gain more confidence.”

This is what K started to do with her journal. She began to listen to her intuition. Suddenly, K was becoming sensitized to many things she never considered before. She was growing and changing. Her friendship with D was about to take a turn.

© Aviv Shahar

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